last minute chillages- forget it..

awwhh..summer is like over already! :( 3 days until school, how sucky! :\ today went with the familia to the zoo, then ate at wendy's and then got bubble tea. mmm...avocado bubble tea is the best *thumbs up. tomorrow chillage with jena and tracy? well that's the plans and hopefully it'll happen! uhmm..my bReast friend is coming back from the T.O tonight, yay? LOL eggghhh it's so hot out, it still feels like summer, yay-uhh!! :) hehe okay that's it for now, toodles caboodles! 8) CONT'D ooh snap, chillage has been cancelled for tommorow :( ah wells, i guess next time eh? i guess that's okay..uhmm..i'm starting to get into my insanity mood..well it's not alot like insanity, i just feel sad..have i been thinking about him? yeaapp..his name appeared on my screen, not my fault :\ i miss him so fu.ckin' much, so much that it's too difficult to explain. it's been awhile since we last talked so uh..am i taking it too hard? no not really, that's the thing it's complicated. the songs i listen to seem to say everything perfect, such as "don't you remember?" sung by usher, it explains perfectly..about..EVERYTHING! golly gosh..i can never sleep anymore..i was able to forget about everything before until..that day..when..yeah, that's me to know and for you not to know. i just can't take it anymore, i just wanna yell and shout on the top of my lungs!! help?! i just feel so alone and i just feel so..egghhh. :( waaahh..i need to cry..i gotta let it ALL out. i wanna tell him so badly about everything and how i feel, actually i just wanna talk to him again. it's killing and tearing me up inside, i want him to know but at the same time i'm too afraid to confront him..gash..I LOVE HIM!!!..there? eww...forget that..